Guest post: my self lost in work

Hey, my name is Janina and I am a female software developer. I first started to work in company X right after finishing my masters in computer science. It was not my first job in the field though, I had worked beside my studies for years at that point. But it still was my first full-time job. My start I started out working in a small team that quickly grew in my first few months there to be a team of 10.

Coming back to work

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference. — Reinhold Niebuhr Oh my, has it already been two entire months since you’ve last heard from me? So much for my goal of publishing a new article every few weeks. Well, let’s better jump right back into the story and take a look at what has happened in the meantime.

I could always just quit, couldn't I?

During the weeks leading up to my three months of time off, there was one thought in particular that crossed my mind repeatedly: I thought “if I get too unhappy with my job, I will just quit”. And boy, had I been unhappy at times! Yet, I never handed in my resignation.

Loosing All Resentment

I’ve been home for about two weeks now and although I’m still not working, I’ve gotten back into most of my old routines again. My days are fairly similar to the days before taking my leave, with one major exception: all my resentment has disappeared.

An abundance of time

I’ve just got back home from my extended family’s annual gathering where a tribe of about 60 people spanning four generations got together in a small village for activities like playing, hiking, singing and generally having a blast together.

Setting the Stage

I still remember quite vividly the first time I touched a computer: My parents had just bought a personal computer and set it up in the living room. From the moment it was turned on it captured all of my attention. And although two decades have passed since then, I still can’t put any appropriate words to the sense of wonder I had felt that day.